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MAX MAYNARD IN THE SHADOW OF FAME (Continued)
I have had one paranormal moment in my life. This was it. I managed to drag the
conversation away from his daughter and back to our shared love of literature.
I confessed to Max that I too wanted to write. Max assured me that I would, adding
that the two of us were, in some way, deeply connected. What we were was deeply
drunk.
"You are me," Max said and his eyes were liquid and his lip hung down. "We are
one"
I had an awful feeling when Max left the kitchen and wobbled toward the stairway
that led up to the bathroom. I offered to steady him, but he would not have it.
The statue was turning back to clay, and just as he reached the landing halfway
up, I heard what I had fully expected to hear. I knew he would fall. There was
a stumble, a small sound somewhere between a curse and a yelp. There was the sickening
sound of a man striking the floor, then a soft moan.
The details are largely gone from here as happens when a person slips into shock.
When I think of Max at the bottom of the stairs I see Bobby Kennedy in a dark
pool of blood. I see a stunned red statue staring at me, then at the ceiling.
I had then no idea a man contains so much blood. I remember lifting Max’s head.
I remember swearing at him.
"If you die, you bastard," I screamed. "I’ll kill you!"
This line seemed to amuse Max, who smiled weakly. He mumbled and then his head
lolled. I ran out into the front yard yelling for help. I picked up the telephone
and when the operator asked where I was, I said I did not know. Some town in England,
I said. The operator told me to leave the phone off the hook and they would find
me. They did.
Max gripped my hand in the ambulance all the way to the hospital. That was, the
medic said, a good sign. He refused to let me loose as the doctor stitched the
gash in his white-haired skull. He held on until someone pried us apart. Someone
else, the police I think, returned me to what looked like a murder scene. My clothes
were covered in blood.
I had known without question that Max was going to fall. Now he was going to
die. A truth beyond explanation had zapped between us. I was him for that millisecond.
He was me. That left one too many of us. At least that is what I thought Max was
thinking as he hurled himself down the landing in a desperate farewell act. If
I had not appeared in England that day, I told myself, he would never have fallen.
Or maybe, had I not appeared that day, Max might have fallen alone and unattended.
These thoughts swirled around my brain as I washed an acre of blood from the hallway
floor.
Three days later, his head still bandaged like a wounded warrior, Max Maynard
stole someone's bicycle and rode from the hospital to the rented house where I
was tending to the chickens and living off garden vegetables. He made himself
a drink and settled back to painting. We never spoke about the accident. I came
home. For two decades Joyce Maynard never wrote about her affair with Salinger
and I never wrote about my visit with her father. Now both stories are out, two
tales of fallen heroes. You can guess which of our two stories made it into the
New York Times.
Max died nine years later in a home for the elderly in Victoria, Canada. Before
then, he rose once more. He returned at the end to western California where he
had first learned to paint, to love beauty and to drink without reservation. He
painted again among his favorite landscapes. He exhibited in galleries. He tried
to get sober. Stiffened by arthritis, he must have looked more and more like a
stern white statue. But inside that frozen shape, I can attest, his heart soared.
Copyright (c) 2005 by J. Dennis Robinson. All rights reserved.
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